two way

Its actually a pretty fucked up idea, Dave. When we get to the point that we have to ask each other questions or make comments in such an indirect route, then we need to re-think the whole communication thing. But perhaps I'm being old fashioned ;-) No, actually I doubt that, because I'm doing it right now.
Now, are you all confused? You should be. There's an interesting attitude going around at the moment, that blogs can be used as a way to communicate directly with someone, and that this is a two way conversation. I think it shouldn't be like that. I was going to say that there are two ways to interpret this, but I've just thought of a third, and back spaced over the entire sentence. There may be even more reasons than I can imagine. Firstly, either our inter-personal skills get so fucked up that we are incapable of direct vocal conversation, or secondly, like telephone and emails, blogging is becomming an acceptable way to conduct your affairs. I prefer the first reason actually, I think the way we talk to each other by email is sometimes horrendous, and we can cause harm a lit easier than we would do were we face to face. Don't get me wrong, I think email is fantastic, but I think its dangerous too. I dislike the idea that we can't just talk to each other. Ultimately, work shouldn't be as important as our relationships with those that we love, or hate. Therefore, conversations that we have about thigns that are happening in work shouldn't be as difficult as those we could have with people we love or hate. So why don't we just sieze the chance when it presents itself, or make the chance now, and say what has to be said? I don't know, but I'd love to have this conversation with Max sometime. Oh, and the third reason was that this is just an extension of emails, or the paper-based "Letters to the Editor" etc idea, which kinda works. Our conversations become like a living document, always growing, always changing in response to what other people write in their documents. Cool :-)
I was just talking to Anna about this, and she said that she thought that my entry from a few days ago where I was bitching about work was a bad idea, and could get me into trouble. I disagreed, but now I'm not so sure, and that fucks me right off. In between my typing "Cool :-)" about three sentences ago, and the moment when I type this, about twenty minutes has passed. I've had a cigarette, taken some clothes out of the washing machine, and baked some ciabatta for lunch tomorrow. I'm probably going to remove that entry, and that both angers and saddens me. I get a lot of traffic from AOL, and can think of several people with the ability to influence the loss of my job who know where this blog is, and who I am. For some strange reason, I'm a afraid of the potential for serious reaction that might result from someone reading it. So its gone, I've just changed it. It has been bastardised, and the integrity of my blog is no more. I'm influenced by opinions other than my own in such a way that what I have written the is truth, but not the entire truth, and the things I have concealed are not because I want to conceal them. I have changed it to suit the sensibilities of my audience, and not reflect what I feel. Well, fuck you.